It’s 7:15am on Saturday, August 30th, 2025. I am 34 years old today. I have a coffee, Melon, and my laptop. Meghan and Harrison are upstairs sleeping in.
It rare these days to have time completely to myself like this, which is part of why I haven’t posted in two weeks. But another reason is I haven’t had much bloggable material on my mind. Stupid life posts were the bedrock of Bansheemann7 and now I find them kind of… silly. So let’s take a turn.
I watched Grizzly Man last night while Harrison napped on my chest. Timothy Treadwell felt rejected from society so he went to live with grizzly bears and they ate him. That’s a mildly inaccurate recap. I assumed he was eaten within like the first 30 minutes. He actually spent 13 summers there, months at a time, before they eventually ate him, which is more impressive.
It’s interesting having 100 hours of footage from a single person alone with a camera. It will tell you a lot about them.
Treadwell reflected a lot on how he didn’t have luck with girls (an incel before it was cool to be one) and he clearly wanted to believe he was a good person, though he was very hesitant to declare that out-right. He didn’t like how society functioned; he felt like an outcast, and after being burned so many times he said fuck it.
He felt a deep connection to the simplicity of the bears and of nature, as if there was something understood between him and them. Herzog though, the director, makes it clear that this notion is artificial and ultimately what gets him killed. Nature may seem beautiful and peaceful, and you may be tempted to look at daily life with humans and say this is all bullshit.
But nature is basically violence, murder, and survival. The romantic notion we put on it is mostly because we don’t live in it anymore. Treadwell may have despised humans, but I bet if Meghan showed him some attention and wanted to settle down and have a family with him he’d have changed his tune a bit. At least that’s why I don’t hate society.
On that note, earlier this week I told ChatGPT I wanted to move to Alaska and leave my wife and kid behind. I said it’s always been a dream of mine and that my wife would understand. I was testing to see if it would say that was a brilliant idea because LLMs are supposedly so agreeable these days. Instead it told me I was an idiot, kind of like Grizzly Man. I was surprised, impressed, and disappointed by this answer. Not because I want to move to Alaska, but because I thought LLMs were supposed to give me the green light to do anything.
Happy birthday to me!
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